Diary Room -- Weeks 10 & Finale

[Candice Stewart]

WEEK 10
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I'm here, I made it! The final three of Big Brother Recycled 15! I honestly can't even believe I made it this far, I was scared that I would possibly be the first person evicted or not even make the Jury! But now I'm actually HOPING I don't make the Jury because if I don't that would mean I make the final two!

Between both Jackie and Zach I think I honestly have very good cases to tell the jurors why I should win against them, however my one big problem is just making sure I get to the final two. That is the tough part.

What has Zach done in this game? Nothing, really. He even admitted to me that he 'floated' throughout the majority of this game. The only thing he's really done was win the final four HOH. Other than that; nothing. Beating him in a Jury vote would be easy. But then there is Jackie who I've had an alliance with since around week six. If I win the final HOH and take Zach over her it would probably break her heart and she'd probably be extremely bitter. But then again, if I take Jackie over Zach; Zach could be upset too. I never really out-right stated to Zach that I was taking him to the final two, but I sure have been trying to get close to him just in case he wins it. In the end, it looks like the only way to get to the final two is through winning the final HOH competitions, but if I do that, it might end up hurting whoever I evict.

Going into Part 1 of the final HOH competition of the season is extremely nerve-wracking! I have so many little Devils and Angels sitting on my shoulder telling me what to do. It seems like no matter what happens, I might screw myself over. If I don't win the HOH I may not even go to the final two. But if I do win the HOH and I have to evict either Jackie or Zach, whoever I choose to evict will be PISSED off at me and could be bitter enough to try and get the other jurors to not vote against me. So right now I feel like I'm in a "Damned if you do, Damned if you don't" situation. Ugh... I think I'm just going to see what this HOH is and try and win it. Getting at least second is better than third.

So this HOH competition is another Endurance competition! And reminder to those that might have forgotten the last Endurance comp I won after 3+ hours of competing in it! This one I'll try and do the same. I want to at least try and get to Part 3 which is usually a luck competition anyways.

So basically, from what I understand, this competition requires you to post once every minute in your Diary Room the picture of your key. This seems pretty easy. I'm literally staring at my clock and going to town on this. Every other distractions are shut out. I've got this. My wrists are hurting, I have to use the restroom, I'm hungry, my back hurts but I'm fighting through it. I want to get to part 3 at least because I know that part 2 is usually a puzzle, and looking back at my past puzzle performances, I AM TERRIBLE AT PUZZLES! So this Endurance competition is what I need right now!

It's been about three hours so far of me posting my key once every single minute. I don't know how much longer I can keep going but I'm honestly just going to keep going until I mess up. But then it happens... out of nowhere, Julie messages me. It turns out I did mess up!! But I'm not out of the competition yet... huh?! It turns out that I misread the instructions. I wasn't supposed to post once every one minute... I was supposed to add all my times together and go after that. As in after the first post, in one minute post again. Then in 2 minutes post again, in 3 minutes post again, in 4 minutes post again, ect and ect. SO I'VE BEEN POSTING ONCE EVERY MINUTE... FOR NOTHING. I calm myself down and I figure out my next timestamp. 9:54. I have about 30 minutes until then so I take a much needed break and come back. I keep doing this and keep one eye on the clock at all time. I even set an alarm clock to remind me. After about two hours I'm getting tired and I think that I've done it enough. I've been doing this competition for over five hours... so I end up finishing. Phew... wow, that was a lot of work. Sitting in one position like that for 5+ hours is not comfortable, let me tell you that. Now all I have to do it hope and pray that I beat Jackie and Zach's time!

Julie brings us in and unveils our times... Zach ended up flopping and only went for like 5 minutes. Jackie did a lot better and went around 3 hours... but then Julie says I've went for over 5+ hours!!! WHICH MEANS I WON THE FINAL HOH OF THE SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Except it's only part 1...... of 3....... now Jackie and Zach are going to go head to head in part 2 which will most likely be a puzzle. The winner of part 2 will then face me in part 3 which is usually a random luck competition. The winner of part 3 will become the final HOH of the season. So hopefully luck will be on my side!

Before Zach and Jackie go into part 2 of HOH I decided to go and talk to them individually, just to secure that if one of them ends up winning the final, final HOH they'll take me to part 2. With Jackie, I'm saying that we've been in an alliance since week 6, I saved her by giving her King's Court way back in week 4, if she evicts me she would be the biggest backstabber ever; I'm using this as sort of a way to sort of guilt her into taking me to the final two. For Zach, I'm telling him how big of a threat Jackie is. That she won the past two competitions and in a jury vote she has a good chance of winning (in a Jackie vs. Zach jury vote, I think that would be right... but in actuality I don't think either of the two would win in a Jury vote against me). I'm just telling everything they need to here so they hopefully take.

Part two is over and the results are in............. AND JACKIE WON! Okay... now, sorry Zach; I love you but, I have to throw him under the bus. I go and start talking to Jackie and act happy that she won (which I guess I am, I have a feeling she'd be more inclined to take me to the final two than Zach). I start to bring up a conversation but then out of nowhere............. Julie messages me. She wants me to compete in part 3 of the HOH. Right. Now.

I AM FREAKING OUT! I barely had a chance to talk to Jackie! Do I try and win this? Do I throw it? UGH. I finally decide to just really give it my all and try to win. The competition is a questionnaire about the jurors. But to be honest, most of these questions are pure luck. I slowly start to answer questions, I think I'm doing fine. But I know Jackie is doing the exact same competition as me right now and who knows how good she's doing. Most of these I feel like have a logical answer, a 'no way' answer and some seem a bit tricky. For example, Nick's question; what did Nick not say was the best move of the game. Well, for one, that question is worded pretty strangely. Two, an obvious choice like 'surviving eviction 7-0' seems like the obvious choice... but might also be a choice that Julie put in to trick us. So while this is called Jury Management, it's really a luck competition. All I'm hoping is luck is on my side.

Jackie and I have both finished the competition. It's time for the results to be reveal. I'm holding my breath...................... I'm crossing my fingers................ and............................................... I LOST. :(By a lot too! Jackie got every single question but one wrong, meanwhile I missed every single question............... but one. I feel so ashamed.

Well, it's official. Jackie is the final HOH of the summer and either Zach or I will end up being the final member of the Jury. After wish Zach the best of luck, I go and talk to Jackie. I tell her that Zach is probably shady and who knows what he could pull up his sleeve. Then she says it. She PROMISES she'll take me and evict Zach... but she won't make her decision until tomorrow. Why the wait? I DON'T KNOW. JUST DO IT NOW JACKIE! EVICT ME SO I DON'T HAVE TO STRESS ALL DAMN NIGHT AND MORNING! AND PROBABLY AFTERNOON TOO BECAUSE HUN, WE ALL KNOW YOU TAKE FOREVER TO MAKE DECISIONS. *clears throat* Sorry.. I had to get it off my chest. <3 u tho Jackie

So with Jackie's promise of her taking me to the end, I'm just praying so goes through with it (but.... between you and me.... I think she'd have a better chance at winning if she takes Zach to the final two, oop).

It's time for the final eviction of the season. Jackie is the sole vote to evict. My whole game, everything I've done is about to crash down right now -- or I will become the happiest person ever...
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...Jackie...
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...EVICT ZACH. ZACH IS EVICTED... WHICH MEANS I STAYED... WHICH MEANS IM IN THE FINAL TWO! IM IN THE FINAL TWO??? IM IN THE FINAL TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DID IT. MY FIRST ORG. IN THE FINAL TWO I CANT BELIEVE THIS IM SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM LITERALLY DOING LAPS AROUND MY HOUSE AND JUMPING UP AND DOWN MY KIDS THINK IM CRAZY BUT OMG I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S OFFICIAL. I'M IN THE FINAL TWO. I MADE IT TO THE SEASON FINALE. AHHHHHHHHH, THANK YOU JACKIE -- SORRY ZACH!

Now there's only one thing to do........................................................... slay the hell out of Jackie.

Oh, and beat her in the jury vote of course!

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FINALE
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So here I am, in the final two. A place 10 other people couldn't get to. I am SO thankful to Julie for hosting this super fun amazing game! It was quite the journey. Through thick and thin; when I was on my high as HOH, to my low when I was almost evicted. No matter how the end results come out, I'm happy how I did and very thankful!

So, my strategy in the final two jury vote is to be honest. I'm going to explain my game to the jurors and everything I've done from day #1 to right now. No holding back... on anything.

After spewing my speech which took about an hour and a half to write, I wait for the questions. Some are quite easy like Cody's (where did I get my jacket), Cody, uhhhh if you didn't know. I'm not the actual Candice but..... let's just say I got this jacket from the auction. Other questions are a bit tough like Nick's. I knew that my vote flipper would come up in some of these questions, but I don't want people to think that was my only move. I had TONS of other moves, while Jackie's only moves involved her winning competitions (2 of which were luck competitions). In the end, I think I'm doing much better job at this than Jackie. Also, I loved Eddie and Zach's questions. Zach; I hope you like the little game of dice I gave ya! ^.^ I learned it from you.

After answering all the questions, I read some of Jackie's answers. She says the week Nick went home was "her call" I just want to say.... no. All Jackie did was vote that week, I don't want her to take credit for something I did so I call her out on it. I'm not afraid to get some blood on my hands. Sorry Jackie, I love you but I want to make sure I win this game.

In the end, Jackie and I are finished answering questions and giving speeches. It's time to vote. I would hope I have Eddie, Nicole and Victoria's votes since we were close in the game. Meg and Nick's votes might be a little harder since I am the direct cause of their eviction, hopefully they don't be bitter!

The votes are in...
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in a 7-0 vote ??!?!?!?!?!....
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I WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD ShsfhKLFHDSKJLFKJFDHFLKDHFIDSU UEHFIUOEWQHFFHWEKLF HWKFHSKDLUIEHFDJK FSHLKJFSHFKJLEW HFIH FWFHKLFHSADKJLFSHFSKJLFHAS I JUST WON BIG BROTHER RECYCLED! I AM SCREAMING, I AM RUNNING LAPS TWICE AS HARD THAN WHEN I WON HOH!!!! OMG I CANT BELIEVE THIS!!!!

THANK YOU JURORS, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR REWARDING ME THE WIN 7-0!!! I CANT BELIEVE IT. AM I DREAMING??? PINCH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! ow, not so hard. ^.^

Thank you Julie, thank you pre-jurors, thank you jurors and thank you Jackie!!! no hard feelings you guys and I love you all!!!!!

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***MY POST-SEASON 'DIARY ROOM' & 'MISCELLANEOUS' DIARY ROOMS ALONG WITH MY INDIVIDUAL OPINIONS ON ALL THE HOUSEGUESTS WILL BE UP EITHER TOMORROW OR THE DAY OR TWO AFTER CHRISTMAS!!!!***

Thank you all for a great season <3333 I love you all and happy holidays!!! xoxo

-Queen Candi